Is there anything as hopeful as new beginnings? The notion of starting over, but with the wisdom of experience? I don't know it if there is. I LOVE New Year's and Easter because I feel like I get another shot at the thing.
I found my post from last New Year's Eve and I wanted to evaluate myself:
So we are driving to Destin and miraculously all three kids are asleep. I am thinking today about what I want to leave in 2014. It's been a big year of leaving off for us.
1. Antidepressants - hallelujah! Next week I will have made it one year!
2. Coffee - this has now become a vacation treat and I am sleeping through the night regularly for the first time in years.
3. Gluten/sugar- I'm not perfect, but for the most part, thanks to my daughter's allergies, I eat well (which is the cornerstone to making #1 possible).
Things I want to leave in 2014:
1. Snapping on my kids. No matter how many times I swear I won't lose it on them again, I always do. They don't deserve it.
2. Hangovers. I'll be 40 this year, and while I drink less often now, I think it's time to officially leave hangovers behind for good. I don't want to waste one more day feeling less than great!
3. Negativity. Keep saying it until I believe it "I am joyful and healthy!"
Here's to shedding old skins!
So, how did I do?
Still off the antidepressants and coffee (except on vacation). Got to feeling so good, I decided I could cheat this fall on the food part. I thought, "Maybe that mood/food thing was all in my head!" Nope. Got back on the healthy food wagon this month and felt great, until last night when I decided, "It's New Years!"
Ah, well. Today is a new day.
As for the things I wanted to leave in 2014.
1. Snapping on my kids- Amazingly, I have made serious gains in this department. Maybe it is because they are older and less maddeningly frustrating, but I think it is because I have started doing a guided meditation every morning that, over time, has allowed me to separate from my thoughts enough to know that screaming and cursing in made-up languages will not solve things. There is a space, just a split second, where I am able to catch myself now, that was never there before.
2. Hangovers - Well... 40 days into that New Year's Resolution I failed miserably. But, I did keep my resolve to waste no more days feeling less than great, so I quit drinking all together this year. I wanted to see if I could do it, and, against all odds, I can! Strikingly, this has been one of the best years of my life. Coincidence? I think not.
3. Negativity - And this is where I will start 2016. My intention, my mantra, for the last two years, is this, "I am joyful and healthy." I just say it. I say it when I feel it. I say it a lot more when I feel farthest from it. "I am joyful and healthy." Magically, for the most part, it works.
Which is why, in 2016, I am trading in resolutions for Intention (say it, pray it, think it until it becomes true), Attention (what we think about and spend our time/energy on we bring about), and MAGIC (because, how else could this stuff work?).
Happy New Years to You and Yours.