Finding Your Purpose and Moving the Needle

Romantic getaways are a bit different for us. We are seekers at our cores, Mike intellectually and me spiritually. We like to learn new things together. I'm sure I married the right man because who else would agree to go to a mindfulness retreat with me for our one weekend away from the kids?

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Rising

For those of you who follow The Homestead, you know we just finished a BIG weekend. By some miracle, my favorite voice of authenticity, NY Times bestseller, Glennon Doyle Melton of Momastery agreed to come be a keynote speaker at our retreat Breaking Open: The Phoenix Process of Spiritual Rebirth, and then appear in public at Mississippi State University. 

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Better Life

The one thing I have recently come to believe, is that we cannot fix a world until we fix ourselves. We are the broken part of the world. It isn't out there somewhere. It is right here. So today I will go and feed the pigs and chickens. I'll feed my family a salad from the garden instead of eating fast food. Maybe I'll take time to pray or meditate. I might even go for a walk if it doesn't rain. And I will try to believe that these small choices, these small changes, will have big impact. I know their impact would be even bigger if you joined me. 

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Changes

We are like that poor child on the news who bawled for his abusive mother as well-meaning protectors took him away. We choose pain, harmful relationships, and disease because we know them. We believe in our fast food, our desserts, our alcohol, our pills, our big spending, our bad attitudes, our diagnoses, our prejudices, our search for more, our numbing comforts, and or justified selves more than we believe in the life that could exist without them. For those of us who try and be faithful, we don't really want a life without the things we control. We may believe in God, but we don't believe in that life. It couldn't possibly be better that what we create on our own. Could it?

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Reawakening Indigenous Sensibilities

It is my belief that the human’s next evolutionary challenge will be to revive such innate
and astounding sensibilities and to follow their powerful lead, without throwing out or
losing what we have gained through painful effort and sacrifice over the last centuries of
human exploration and development. We cannot and should not go back to what we
were before these advances, nor can we afford to ignore any longer the parts of ourselves
that were shut off in order to proceed as we have. The human’s psychological life,
emotional life, spiritual life and the earth itself can no longer sustain the effects of the
autism that has developed.

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Christmas Party in a Mississippi Public School

Christmas Party in a Mississippi Public School

I knew Max was having a good year, but I have tried to give him the space he needs as he gets older. I was floored. In the middle of a state who always falls to the bottom of funding and performance in education, in the middle of a school where the pressure for teachers to raise test scores is intense, in the middle of an educational system where we are trying to squeeze blood out of turnips, I found a peaceful holiday celebration led by a teacher wrapped in bows.

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The White Envelope Gift

I don't remember what our parents thought about the "White Envelope Gift." I don't remember anything special about that holiday at all. I do know, that at a time when were were most concerned with how to get beer underaged, my brother and I were doing something we believed our parents thought was important. I know our mom and dad's values led us to cross tracks and reach out in our own version of trying to heal a little tear in the world. I know I felt safe because I was with my brother, even if I wasn't. And, I know I want to pass on a set of values to my kids that allows them to take risks out of love.

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Death without Antidepressants

Death without Antidepressants

Almost a year ago this month, I was able to go off antidepressants for the first time since my early twenties. I have finally learned the tools necessary for life with a wonky brain. I got scared that I might sink when life threw curve balls like death in the way. Instead, I am able to feel the fullness of my grandparents' lives. Because they are part of me, I am able to pull out tools like healthy routines, prayer, and exercise and delve into the beautiful sadness of saying good-bye. 

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